Thoughts of a Deranged Mind (also called "Contradictions")

Contradictions
By Joshua 4-28-2008


Isn’t it strange how full of contradictions we are? We say we are one thing, yet we act another. We think one thing, yet believe something else. We are one thing, yet people see you as another.
Take me for example:

I am careful in all I do.
Yet I limp and have multiple sore wounds.

I am thoughtful, a deep thinker.
Yet I act to hastily and can miss details.

I am friendly, cheerful.
Yet inside I am a loner and depressive.

I am smart, intelligent.
Yet I make mistakes I shouldn’t.

I recognize the foolishness in a romantic relationship.
Yet I push for one whenever I have a chance.

I am loud and cocky.
Yet inside I am quiet and reserved.

I am crazy, wacky, and goofy.
Yet inside I am cynical and calculating.

I think things to the point of infinite detail.
Yet in dealing with a job, money, college, career and relationships I have no plan.

I need to have a set order.
Yet my mind and actions are impulsive and chaotic.

I am a writer, a singer, a musician, a poet, an artist, and an actor.
Yet I feel I can never truly express myself.

I stand alone, by myself, and seem content.
Yet I long for company who I can talk to and trust.

I am strong for others, a rock which the oceans of Life can crash against, but cannot be broken.
Yet a single harsh word from a close friend or relative can tear me up inside.

I AM a contradiction.