Also... as you probably know, I suffer from bouts of depression and tend to contemplate my own sins and failures a bit more than is probably healthy for me. I summed it up quite nicely, I believe, in a little analogy I posted on my Facebook page:
"There are times when your thoughts turn inward, and it is like walking into your room that you haven't cleaned in a year. there is all this junk laying around, it all belongs to you, and there are little monsters hiding in some places. You don't want to clean things up, and you know that you'll have to dump some of the stuff on friends later, but you don't want them to have to deal with your junk. That and if you stay to long, the monsters you created come out, wanting to play. But they are abominations not even a mother could love, and it scared the heck out of you."
Over the last week, through random little events that have been building up... I have decided that God wants me to lay down as much as I can to my Leadership class (it is kinda a Bible-study group, Small-group, and Leadership-training all rolled into one). So tomorrow (Friday), I'm going to attempt to do just that. Of course it will depend on if Mrs. Kilgore will let me high-jack the last part of class... but God willing I will do it, and hopefully either be free of my heavy conscience or well on the way.
That is all for now, I'll tell you more when I can.
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