Update 3/30/09

Life Sucks. Thats a fact. And the only time it will not suck is when we can live in perfect harmony with ourselves and God in
His Everlasting Kingdom. Some might say (sarcastically of course) "Wow, that's encouraging", But I actually do find it encouraging. I mean think about it; Why should we have to live through this world or pain, sorrow, suffering, betrayal, murder, if there is no reward for us in the end? If you look at it like that, then take God out of the equation, I think you'll start to see why so many commit suicide. When you have nothing to live for, there is no point to go on. And if you have to go through so much, why bother trying?

Anyways, to get on with my update:

On 3/4/09 I had a seizure and lost all my short-term memory from midday 3/1 to morning of 3/5. On 3/5 I went in to the hospital and got a CAT scan and blood test and a few other tests. They have no idea what happened. My bloodsugar at the time was around 34, so my diabetes doctor thinks that I went low when I was sleeping and my brain crashed. I normally would have woken up (I do all the other times I go that low when I'm asleep), so my personal theory is that I had one of my bad Brainstorm headaches, was unconscious, and my bloodsugar shot down. and, since I was unconscious, my normal warning systems for low bloodsugars was inactive. So anyways, now I have a gap of 3 1/2 days I can't remember, and trying can best be describes as "Thinking over broken glass". Sounds like fun? Try it, it feels even better.

Lexy has officially left me. I couldn't make it to MN for Spring Break, and I guess that was the last straw for her. She needed someone who she could at least see in person every once in a while, and I just didn't meet the bill. Besides, she had the same problem Aiching had with me, she couldn't get into my head and understand half the things I was thinking. When you are that cut off, it is kinda hard to maintain a close relationship. I don't really blame her.
So, based on data collected during my time with Aiching and Lexy, and from observations made of other couples (both successful ones and failed ones), I have decided I am not cut out for dating. I cannot let people in enough to actually have a romantic relationship with someone. So from now on, consider me a weird cross between the apostle Paul and James Bond. God led Paul to not get married, and for now that is what I'll stick with. But that doesn't mean I can't flirt around and have some fun (just no taking them to bed like Bond was so fond of doing).

Anyways, what else is new... Oh, I got an old Dell laptop from Jacob. It works pretty well, even though the keyboard is kinda touchy and it runs loud and sometimes kinda slow. But it is nice anyways.

So... until next time, Good Luck and God Bless.