Hailee's Commemoration: (11/19/10)

So, I've decided to do a number of kinda commemorations for special people in my life. The first is for Hailee, more people will come soon.


Hailee Commemoration (11/18/10):

So, I met this girl about a week and a half ago, Hailee. She is about 16, and she is probably the best thing to happen to me in while. Now, just to eliminate confusion, it is not a romantic relationship. She is my adopted little sister. Or, my “pet-name” (no pun intended) for her, “Silly Bunny”. =J
She is funny, sweet, smarter than she gives herself credit for, and has a beautiful personality. She is very reserved though, she has had some trauma in her life (that I will not disclose) that kinda wears on her social interactions. She doesn’t seem to know what to talk about a lot. I have to push her for a conversation usually. But when she does talk, the personality that peeks through that quirky half-smile and sparkly eyes is intriguing.
She has a lot more to her than she lets out. She is afraid of trusting people, she is afraid of trusting herself. She seems to want to trust people, she just doesn’t know how to.
I’ve adopted her as my “Little Sister”, I think there is a lot we can teach each other (even though she disagrees). I think she can teach me to be a bit of a nicer person, to pay attention to the subtleties of a person’s personality and be sensitive to their quirks, eccentric personalities, and touchy topics. I can teach her to be more outgoing to trust people and how to open up more to certain people.
So, in here is to Hailee, my silly little Bunny =J. Who has restored my faith not only in the innocence of people, but also in my faith in my own use to the people I interact with. I actually make her laugh and it makes me feel better about myself. It isn’t a job, like so many other people I’ve had come to me in the past. It’s a pleasure, it actually makes me happy.
So, here’s to you, you silly Bunny. =P

"Compassion" (11/5/10)

I was watching a TV show recently, and two of tha characters were having a conversation and one mentioned that the other that they believed compassion was a weakness.
This got me thinking. Some people do think compassion is a weakness, but if you really think about it, it is more of a sign strength.
Compassion, in certain scenerios, is an extension of grace to a person or persons who could potentially come back and bite the one extending compassion's hand.
I for one would rather eliminate a threat than extend it a courtsey such as compassion. Now, my general motive is simply the fact that I dont like having to watch my back at all moments of the day. But I know others who deny compassion becaise they are afraid of what could happen if they extend compassion and their good-will is turned on them.

So, I might edit this post later or maybe add to it but, basically, I believe compassion is a sign of great strength, not of weakness of any kind or intensity.

Talk more later,
~Josh

How Do You Want to Die? (11/4/10)

How do you want to die?

I've been thinking of that recently. Not because I want to die, mind you, but simply because Death is a part of Life.
I've had people tell me not to focus on Death, but on Life. Thing is, when you tell someone a friend or loved one passed away, what do they ask? "How did they die?" They never really ask "How did they live".
Infact, beyond what you hear from the friends, family, and preacher during a person's funeral, you rarely hear about a person's life.

So, that brings me to the question, "how do you want to die?"

I know how I want to die. I want to have my life sacrificed to save someone or something greater than me. Which, in my mind, is almost anything.
You see it in the movies all the time: Boromir in "Lord of the Rings", Neo in "The Matrix", Maximus in "Gladiator", William Wallace in "Braveheart"...
To quote Bon Jovi:
"Lord, I got to ask a favor, and I'll hope you'll understand. 'Cause I've lived life to the fullest, let this boy die like a man. Staring down a bullet, let me make my final stand."

Thats how I want to be remembered. Thats how I want to die.

How do you want to die?

Book Publishing- Need Your Help!!!

Okay, so I'm looking into getting a couple of my books published. But I need your people's helps to do it!

Here is a link to the book's Blog:
http://taskeforce-deathwalk.blogspot.com/?zx=375013743d2a753d

What I need is for you to read either some of it or all of it, even if you only read a few chapters is fine; and I need all the comments, critiques, and feedback you can give me. Anything that might make the story or the writting better.

The reward? If you idea is used, I'll be sure to cite you in the book's credits.

You can post your comments either on the last post of the blog or here. I might open my Facebook page up for this, but I am not sure yet.

Thank you so much!
~Josh